I think recently my mood swings is very bad. One moment I feel so happy and the next I'm frustrated and sian. So today was my confirmation day. I was rather excited in the morning though I had a terrible nightmare and plus coco was barking in the middle of the night so I woke up feeling so not refreshed. Work was alright. After lunch we had our unit meeting followed by my confirmation appraisal. I was glad that my reviews were largely positive. I scored 25/33 which according to them is rather high for a new staff with no prior experience in this field. After work I was supposed to go playnation with Andrew. So when we met and on our way there we were still laughing and joking around. I remember feeling really happy to be able to go out with him. Then we started talking about Enoch cell and how I was any at him in the past for badmouthing Enoch cell. But I don't remember so I was quite irritated when he made it sound like I was being defensive and misunderstood him. So I just said he makes me angry most of the time when he speaks cause he tend to use a very bad tone that makes people offended, maybe just me. Then he started to keep quiet all the way until we reached playnation he didn't want to talk to me. So when we first started the games, it was super awkward cause I'm like trying to act normal but he is just ignoring me. After a while then we slowly started to talk, then played together and have interactions. I enjoyed the games. Then it was time to go, then I realized that I'm really very broke. But I don't want to let him know in case he finds out that I have been spending all my money. So I just paid and we left. Then he was talking about how he is always very thrifty except when he goes out with me. Then he'll say things like I'm very stingy, when it's my turn to pay then I'll always try to cut the costs. But when is he pay then I nv. I didn't do it on purpose ma. And is he always like to bring me to those atas places. I just didn't refuse only. And I don't know what's the reason tt he doesn't like to hold hands. It's like when he wants to masturbate then he'll get all so close but when he's not in need then he don't even bother to hold hands. I really don't know what does it mean. So I started to get irritated and sian. Then he once again was very annoyed by his mother cause she wants to buy an insurance plan from me but she always get him to do stuff. On my side I'm also very lost as to what they want to do. So I felt even more sian cause now work has come into the equation. I was so tired and sian tt I really didn't want to bring coco down but seeing that she was so guai as to not pee on the floor, I still brought her down. And now I'm just drowning in my sian ness and I hate it because it's supposed to be a happy day with celebration but end up I'm just so frustrated about everything. It's a sucky day...